Me Vs Future

Every life starts with a Question mark !!!

The day you are born the first ? is what would be your name lol ( just a stupid example ) but
on a serious node .
Life is full of surprises and you don't know what is waiting for you in future until you are not
very clear about it ( 99.99% don't know what their future would be ) .
So don't make any decisions about your future until you are 100% clear about it .

Phase 1 (Early life) :-

I was born in a higher middle class family ( who had enough money to live a happy life but human
nature to get get up the ladder and hunger never ends :-) ) . So i had a huge burden of doing something
good with my life form day one . Its nothing like i don't like my family infect i love them and can do
any for them .
I was pretty good at studies when i was in school , not interested in girls more into sports kind of a thing but
again you can't decide your faith ( if you could you would be the happiest human being alive )
People say when if a GUY ( not a girl ) falls in love or whatever you wanna call it he is gone ,and
 i can say its very true i have seen my good friends who used to score above 90 % goning down to 45
no kidding . I was a little different i was attracted towards girls just for the sake of having a girlfriend
coz every one had one , so my scored didn't dip up to 45 i managed 70% in Secondary and 65% in senior secondary exams
( it was satisfactory for me but hell no way for my parents ) .
After 12th came the biggest question of my life what after 12th , My Dad wanted me to go for BSc Science maybe he knew
how much studying capacity is left in his son lol but me and my Mon wanted me to become an Engineer ( at that time i thought
i could be one ) . So it was finally decided i will be sent to Agra for my Engineering studies i always wanted to go to Pune but
was still happy coz i was away from from ( i m from meerut).

In Agra i did the greatest thing that a guy can do with his life , i mistook Engineering as 10th or 12th and thought i could pass easily
but my destiny was something else .I never liked going to classes the same story continued in Engineering as well and finally the first Semester Exams came
I thought i did pretty well with the exams ( the aim was only to pass not to score 75 or 80). then came the result another shocker ,since i never attended the classes seriously
my internal marks were pathetic ( you need to impress professors in engineering to get good internal scores as they are the deciding factor about you clearing the exams )
I sucked badly i passed all the exams but all the professors except one ( whom i used to drink with ) failed me and my over all result was a big ZERO which was the first time for me
failing to pass an exam it was a blow for me but didn't take it seriously coz i had a girlfriend at that time who was more interested in me meeting her then clearing my exams ( she scored over 75 in the same exams )
At that time i thought my future is with this girl and it hardly matters weather i clear my exams or not weather i take my career seriously or not and what my parents gonna think and feel when they gonna know what their
son ( with huge expatiation's ) did .
Eventually that happened that was invincible and bound to happen ( i had to leave the dream of becoming an Engineer ) and had to look at other options , I bailed out on my parents so was not in a position to make decisions as
in what to do on what to not , My dad suggested me to go for a Bachelor's Degree in Computer applications ( i was good at computer ) and i didn't have any other option and this time i had to be serious enough to at least clear my exams ,
and i did exactly what i planned i scored good in my first year's exam ( Trust me i was really good at my studies ) and some how convened my parents that i can work while studying ( work in a BPO ) it was the most difficult thing in my life to
convince my father about this but eventually i did as i was good at it .
Finally i came to delhi ( Haven't even dreamt of coming to delhi to work in a BPO) appeared in several interviews i was lucky enough to clear all of them so i had options which one to choose from  and i choose one and started working .

This word FUTURE haunted me all my life every thing that happened was never decided rather was not even an option in my future planning :-)

Phase 2 ( office life ):-
It started smoothly but again that girl factor had to screw my life up ( i said yes to another girl just for the sake of having a girlfriend )
and it started screwing my work life , i was good at work but she haunted me all the time i was sometimes scared of going to work just because of her .


My advice to every one never ever go near a girl epically at your work place whom you can't tolerate for 10 hours a day lolz.
After few months my life started changing i saw a girl with whom i can see my future crystal clear she became my best friend in no time because we were very similar but i never had the guts to tell her how i feel for her not even when i left that company
and joined another company , She was the girl i always dreamt of and for the first time in my life this nutcase was serious for something but again was too lazy or shy to tell her how i felt ,
I never though that i would feel for a girl like this ever ( again was not a part of future planning ) .
I sucked again , once i changed the company lost her number ( though i tried to get her number back from every one whom i could think of but every moron bailed me out ), don't know why they didn't want me to talk or get in touch with her again anyways i did what
i was good at once again ( screwing up everything ). She was always my dream girl although was never been able to tell her how i felt but i knew down the line she knows how i feel Anyhow i was again busy spoiling me myself and my so called future with messing around with another
girl and not taking my career seriously which i was always good at .

Finally came the day of which i never ever though will come in my life ( thanks to facebook ) my dream girl found me on FB and sent me a msg this time i didn't want to screw up and i told her every thing i did in my life and how i felt for her .
Was a big relief for me and that day i realized even she felt the same for me tooo.
I was a big time sucker all my life never knew what my future would be but for the first time in my life i was very clear about my future and hows its goona work .

Today i m very serious about my life ( the girl i m in love with) and my future too just because i can see very clearly why i want and how its gonna be .
So lesson i have learnt from life is be very clear about what you want and how its gonna work out and if you have even a tiny bit of doubt you gonna spoil it just like me lolz :-))

MY Stupid Puppies :-)))

Faith

Someone said long time back...faith can move mountains!



I am now thinking and thinking, and it gave birth to a small doubt-is faith any paranormal activity or is it magic? I am no one to question someones faith, but what do I do of the ant-sized doubts thats growing in my mind ?



When mom left me alone in the craddle, I felt trapped into a black hole, I had no choice but to have faith in something...maybe someone...might be even me..that I would be pulled out of it and left in the floor that seemed so limitless to me then. No...that faith did not do anything...



There did not appear any old man in any shredded rags, there did not happen any miracle...not even Dad came to my rescue. It was only when mother finished her chores, she came and pulled me out and embraced me tight to her chest where I could even listen to her heart beats.



Faith...I remember another instance from yesterday!



I then knew how to walk without grabbing any finger. I felt I was so matured. I believed nobody was as strong as me. I was confident. Walking through the small dew droplets beneath my black leather shoes, I headed towards a big strange building that trapped many of my age. Mother called it a school. I never thought I would want to be in my mothers lap so badly as I wanted to be that day.



I entered through the gate and moved towards a room that soon I started calling a classroom. I was all alone. Mother said she would leave and come back in my recess. The bell behind the big hall started ringing. Mother started moving away. With every passing second, she started becoming invisible from my sight. I did not give up. I had something called faith...faith that my mother would come back to me in a second and take me back home. I would have been so happy that day if mother would have tied me to the same craddle. I won't have felt like running away from the black hole that day. Mother did come back...but alas! It was recess!



I remember now how my daddy worked for extra hours to get for me the cycle for my birthday. This time I had faith in him that he would make my dream come true. I started waiting for the next day, it was my birthday. I still celebrate my birthday on the 3rd of December. Faith...finally I would be able to move a mountain...I am referring to my daddy when I say mountain.



It was so cold that night. Mother lit the fire and the smell of dal mixed with oil and garlic filled our home, our sweet home. I moved near mother and she held me tight in her arms and promised me that this birthday would be the best birthday one has ever celebrated. I believed her. Mother, I wanted to tell you then that I felt something was burning inside me. Daddy was outside with his brother, sitting beneath the sky, talking about some property that grandpa left when he died.



Suddenly, the smell of dal was no more, all I could smell was some gas that was burning my lungs. Mother, I remember now, that was the last time I touched you. That was the last time I felt your heartbeat. Mother, that was the last time I opened my eyes. How I wish you could have saved me from the pain I am going through right now!



Mother, I never saw daddy again. Is he fine? Tomorrow is my birthday mother, its been 26 years since that night. It will still be my birthday tomorrow...just that...I am no longer alive…



Why was I the chosen one that night? I wanted to ride the cycle, I wanted to cut the cake...I wanted to see how my friends would have felt after being with me that day....but.....



Someone said long time back...faith can move mountains! But.......







(dedicated to all the victims of the Bhopal gas tragedy...who did not get a chance to see their dreams come true)

Copenhagen Climate Conference the hot topic !!!

For the few weeks every day i gets up no matter turn the TV onn or read the rews paper every body is talking about Climate conference , The whole world has an eye on this conference and stupidly most of us believe that things gonna change in minutes :-)

I have seen pictures of people in rallies carrying big posters and stuff ARE THESE PEOPLE HELPING THIS CLIMATE IN ANY ASPECT NO !!

If you would closely analyze how much paper and energy is wasted in these rallies and demonstrations you can easily figure out how environment friendly these things are .

Every news paper is talking about Kyoto Protocol does any one know what that really is ,before today i didn't know what it was it says :


The Kyoto Protocol is an international agreement linked to the United Nations Framework Convention on Climate Change. The major feature of the Kyoto Protocol is that it sets binding targets for 37 industrialized countries and the European community for reducing greenhouse gas (GHG) emissions .These amount to an average of five per cent against 1990 levels over the five-year period 2008-2012.

The major distinction between the Protocol and the Convention is that while the Convention encouraged industrialised countries to stabilize GHG emissions, the Protocol commits them to do so.

Recognizing that developed countries are principally responsible for the current high levels of GHG emissions in the atmosphere as a result of more than 150 years of industrial activity, the Protocol places a heavier burden on developed nations under the principle of “common but differentiated responsibilities.”

The Kyoto Protocol was adopted in Kyoto, Japan, on 11 December 1997 and entered into force on 16 February 2005. 184 Parties of the Convention have ratified its Protocol to date. The detailed rules for the implementation of the Protocol were adopted at COP 7 in Marrakesh in 2001, and are called the “Marrakesh Accords.”

Even after reading this i am clueless lol :-)

Just for a second forget about counties and think about you how much are you doing for the sake of our environment .

For me its not gonna chage in seconds , minutes not even in years until each and every human understands the importance or out environment

The World with Humanity as the only Religion !!

What does the word religion means , how it became so dominant that it could control human lives .

I found few definations for this word :-

1.	a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.

2.	a specific fundamental set of beliefs and practices generally agreed upon by a number of persons or sects: the Christian religion; the Buddhist religion.

3.	the body of persons adhering to a particular set of beliefs and practices: a world council of religions.

4.	the life or state of a monk, nun, etc.: to enter religion.

5.	the practice of religious beliefs; ritual observance of faith.

6.

something one believes in and follows devotedly; a point or matter of ethics or conscience: to make a religion of fighting prejudice. All this make sense but the actual meaning thats comes across in the day to day like is totally different . Maybe when theses religion were in their premature phases they may have affected the human life in certain good ways . I am over 20 years of age the lives a country with people from almost every religion . So it was and it is never difficult to analize people from different religion here . I may offend some people here but what i have seen in the past few years is that people have modified their religion as per their needs or what ever is convinient to them and that really hurts . If you believe in something and wants to practice that it should be practiced as it is not as you want it to be . I am personally not against any religion and neither in favour of any . Every religion have some good things to offer and if we try to summarize all the religion into one it would give us a clear picture . Have you ever asked yourself What are some things all religions have in common? Bitter but truth this is what i believe : They all follow men and the laws of men and not the laws of God. They follows rituals bought down from generation to generation, and all are abominations to God. They demean each other and think they are true followers of God. They all have various ways of baptizing the ignorant who are to lazy to inquire of Gods ways by asking God himself. All their faiths are weak. For if they were strong, as the Disciples of old, they wouldn't follow any religion, but one and he is not a religion, Jesus Christ is the way. The narrow path that we are to follow, yet all religions make God hard to understand. Many are turned away because of their fear of God or disbelief. I fear God, but my fear is that I won't do him justice or live my life according to what he has planned for me. My fear keeps me free of the world of men, and there hypocritical interpretations of the scriptures. All churches interpret scriptures to fit the world they live in. The true interpretations are all concerning Gods world and not mans. The Prophets have prophesied that in the last days, their would be lots of false Prophets. The world is full of them. This is the modern definition for all the religion .I wish we could look beyond this and bring justice for us being human .

Barack Obama Gets a Nobel Prize for Peace is it more than a Debate??

I got up today and was checking on whats on T.V, There was a debate on every damn news channel whether Barack hussein obama deserves a Nobel prize ,not only on Indian channels but on CNN & BBC too.
I was pretty amazed that more people thing that its too early to award him with such an honour
some were saying what has he done for us or for the world , i agree he haven't accomplished anything significant yet but the only thing he gave us ( not only Americans but the people of the whole world) is hope .
Hope to rise , hope to end this haterate, no matter what ur race or religion is .

That hope made him the First Black President of the world's strongest country , his colour ,his race or his religion couldn't stop him form achieving what he wanted .

I know this is endless one last thing
I don't know weather Mr Obama deserves the Nobel Prize or not but the Hope he gave us sure does !!!